Ok here goes! I am going through all 3 things in the title! This might be a long blog post with lost of rambling! But there are a lot of things to go through!
Ok the Bad! This past week has been a really rough week. 2 weeks ago today I had to go take a few blood tests to test my progesterone levels, and see if we can start trying to have kids again. I have had to take 4 months off because my ovaries were inflammed and they were worried my ovaries would burst which would turn into a hysterectomy. I also had a lot of cysts, so they put me on birth control and metformin to get my ovaries back in working order! Well the blood tests were to see if my ovaries were working correctly again. Well last Monday I got the phone call! I had to go back in to get an ultrasound, and things were not good! I have to wait 4 more months before we can make a decision of what we need to do. Inflammed ovaries are causing scar tissue which is not good. So back on the pill, and metformin. I am not sure how I feel about this whole thing, besides wanting to give up and not care anymore. Last week was not a good week for me, so if I seemed distant to people sorry I was dealing with a lot emotionally. I blamed myself for a while, felt sorry for myself, was angry with everyone, including the Lord, then I got real! I am going to make changes to make things better. I am going to stick to a very strict diet with Jackie Warner's book to control my hormones, yes I am going to enjoy food, but be cautious and track everything. Hopefully this will help so come June there is good news to go around! If this works, then hopefully the 10 pounds will come off too! This was a really bad thing for me, and I am struggling with how I feel and how I am going to react everyday, and everyday is a new emotion!
So the first Ugly! So with PCOS comes lots of bad side effects. There is quite a long list of them, but I will go through the ones I struggle with and what are most common in people I have talked to. First thing I have struggled with is acne. I have never had a problem with acne, until I started trying to have kids. So even before Kennady. I have tried every face wash, and every treatment, but it doesn't really seem to help. I get them around my jaw line mostly, this is a hormonal sign if you get acne there. I have found the best facial cleanser so far for acne, I used to use Proactiv, but my skin got used to it, so now I use Bare Minerals sensitive facial cleanser, with their toner. I use Oil of Olay face lotion with spf 15 for sensitive skin. I also use Bare Minerals night cream for skin care also. So far this has been great! But I still have to work hard to not let it get out of control
Second Ugly is facial hair. I know this is embarrassing, but I have had hair growth on my jaw line, and chin, it starts getting long and really annoying. I have a women shaver that I got on Amazon that is only for women and facial hair, no creams, no water all you do is slide down your face and it just trims it all off. Sucks really bad, but I have to do this about once a week.
Third ugly is hair loss. The technical term androgenic alopecia. It is often called male patterned baldness! Seriously... yeah I am not kidding! My hair has been really suffering the past year. It has become very thin, and not very manageable! It has been very frustrating! My sister Chelsey luckily convinced me to get extensions! Now I don't know if I could live without them. I love them! It makes my hair look so much better. I have tried to not color my hair, bleach my hair in about 6 months. Luckily the ombre hair style is starting to be trendy! I have been using intense moisturizing shampoo and conditioner called Alterna seasilk ageless. You have to get it through a sylist. I also use Pravanna leave in conditioner every day to help moisturize my hair. I have recently started using moroccan oil. This seems to be helping. I have also started taking Biotin which is a supplement for hair growth, I take this 3 times a day with my prenatals. Hopefully we will start seeing a change, and I can take out my extensions!
My hair is super thin now, I wish you could see it better, but trust me, it is not good!
Fourth ugly is weight gain, or can't loose weight! Well luckily I have not gained too much weight, but I have gained about 10 lbs in the last year, which I fluctuate between that 10 pounds all the time. PCOS prevents people from being able to lose weight, which again for a women is frustrating! So this year my sister has a book that I just ordered from Amazon called "This is why you're fat and how to get thin forever" by Jackie Warner. In reading my sisters book it talks about hormones and how to control those with the foods you eat. So I am going to start working on all the foods to control my hormones. I want to get rid of those 10 pounds I have acquired, and maybe lose a few more!
My before picture, before I start the new diet! I try to work out 4 times a week already, but will keep you posted about how the diet works!
Ok here goes the good! Amongst all this bad and ugly, there should be a good. It is causing me to make a lifestyle choice, that I can change my life forever with diet, and knowing how to control my body and know how to make my body work correctly! Another good is I am learning patience! I am not good at this, but I am working on it. Some days I am really good, some days I am really bad at this! I have had to rely on a lot of praying, and help from the Lord to get me through all of this. I have gained a stronger testimony and have grown closer to the Lord. As much as it seems like this should be hard on a marriage, this has actually made me and Ty closer. He is so understanding, and when I cry and don't know how I feel or what to say, he just holds me and tells me how much he loves me and he is always there to support me in everything I do. This is a huge good, since that is the most important thing in the world is Ty. The other good is Kennady! I love her so much and I am so lucky to have her in my life. She is my little shadow, and I can't get enough of her! she also makes me feel better when I am crying, she always comes to give me a big hug and tell me I am her best friend! The Good is I am learning, and have become really humble through all of this, and have learned not to judge people, you never know what they are dealing with!
My cute little family!!! This is just for fun!!
So there you go! A lot of truth's and a lot of bad things, and embarrassing things about me, but it is good to get them out in the open, and be able to research these things, and make them better. If anyone else has any good advice on any of the symptoms let me know!
So when I get my blood test in a few weeks I will let you know if my levels are higher to see if it really works! But seems better than taking pills. Some side effects of Clomid are